Goals for Spring 2018

As I’ve mentioned numerous times, this is my last semester living at home. This is the last year living at home (until I graduate with my Bachelor’s). So these goals are a little more important to my life now.

  1. Earn As in OChem II, Genetics, and Speech
  2. Learn to accept that I am not the best
  3. Start the process of volunteering at a hospital
  4. Find housing for university
  5. Learn to live in the present- not the future
  6. Fix my power steering hose
  7. Learn to cook quick meals

2018 New Year’s Resolutions

With this year being one of the last that I live at home with my parents, it’s time I start making some resolutions on how to adult. Fortunately, I’ve been making progress in adulting. I made my first in-person bank deposit, purchased windshield wipers (but there’s something off with my driver’s side…), learned how to drive, and survived my first (And hopefully only, Baruch Hashem) car accident. So here’s some other things I want to learn how to do. Continue reading

I’m 20 Now

Being 19 was a wilder ride than 18. During this age, I faced many fears. I’m kinda scared about what’s in store. In fact, this is my last age where I’ll be living at home, and I’ll probably turn 21 right before I leave for university.

I’ve been so busy balancing work (I basically work two jobs, for school and for my dad), school, and accident-related appointments.

If I’m not working, I’m in class. If I’m not in class, I’m at the doctor’s, mental therapist’s, or physical therapist’s. If I’m not at therapy or the doctor’s office, I’m doing homework. I don’t even have time to meet cute boys.

And as of recently, I’ve been busy trying to get a new class at my school so I can TAG UC Irvine. Without that class, I don’t think I’ll be able to get in, because Biomedical Engineering: Pre-Medical is their most popular engineering major. Even if I tagged UCI as a chemistry major, there’s a slim chance of appealing to BMEPM.

I didn’t get a chance to go out with my friends this year, although it’s only been a couple days and we’ll probably go out next weekend, hopefully. But when I can rest during the summer, knowing I’m transferring to a good school, it will be worth it.

Suicidal thoughts are coming back, although they’re not as antagonizing as the first half of 2016. It’s more like “I have so much shit to do, and if I die right now I don’t need to worry about it and the universe won’t exist without me anyway”.

And if I die, my parents won’t get compensation. Anyway, at this point I’m not too suicidal. Probably would help if I continued taking my meds, but I’m too lazy.

For now, I’ll just have to try to balance my life. I’m getting my hair done again soon, and I love existing when I have a full head of blue and green.

So let’s get some goals out of the way. Hoping to complete all these before the year ends.

  1. Complete the semester with straight As
  2. Make sure I’ll be taking a C-ID ENGR 220 course in Winter or Spring before I transfer
  3. TAG UCI for BMEPM
  4. Get some action
  5. Try VINIQ
  6. Apply to UCI, USC, UCLA, among others

You Loved Brad

I haven’t been able to write about my trip to Israel recently because I was a victim in a high speed car accident on the freeway. I was driving home from UC Irvine (hopefully my future home) when I came to a hard stop behind a car. I breathed a sigh of relief that was followed by a loud crash and force behind me. A 7/11 truck hit me at nearly full speed in the fast lane of the freeway, totaling my 2002 Acura RL/Honda Legend. The collision has pulled me into many states of panic, depression, anxiety, pain, nostalgia, and euphoria. So I’d like to dedicate this to my old friend, the Blacura. Continue reading

Israel Part 1: Taglit

Note: I understand that this blog post is shared to friends and family, but the content is not typically something I would share at Thanksgiving dinner. The following blog post contains profanity and adult themes. This is my informal take on the trip, and the views are not those of Israel Free Spirit, Taglit-Birthright Israel, or any other organization or person. The purpose of this post, and future blog posts relating to my time in Israel, is only to record my memories and serve as a guide of expectations for others who come across this post (which I don’t expect to be many). Also, I’m kind of an ass and didn’t ask anyone for permission to post their pictures or opinions, but I’m willing to edit if anyone wants to be retracted. Continue reading